From T-Bone (Letter 64)

T-Bone is a massively-built spiritual ex-Marine, who uses fighting skills to stop prison rape. T-Bone’s latest letter from Arizona prison:

It’s been awhile since I’ve written you about this place, and it is sick as ever. People keep coming to me, asking for help, either for guidance or for me to talk to someone about them trying to turn them out, or for prayer! In regards to sexual desires, there is a line one can’t cross, towards men or women! I am a big man, and that stops a lot of small minded people from pushing too far, but the smaller guys who happen to be weak at heart and mind, in this environment, and those who happen to be mentally challenged and physically challenged are always being pushed in someway or the other.

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There are quite a few booty bandits in prison, and a lot of them are out in the open with it, or what their intentions are. They push on guys just to turn them out. Personally, I think it’s sickening for another man to try and get a guy to do whatever to fit in prison because he’s mentally challenged, to have sexual relations with him. Just like it is for a guy to do the same to a woman whose mind isn’t right! We should look out for the weak, not abuse them.

I let go of myself, allowed God to move me in this way. I told this guy named Bernard (he runs a booty-bandit crew), he sets up sexual encounters. He’s a pimp or wants to be, he’s 5’8’’, 240ish and he pushed on this kid who’s on meds, serious medication. He went to him and asked him for a light. The kid said sure and Bernard took a queen into the kid’s cell and they started to rub on his legs and on each other, which led to them having sex. The kid runs out there and tells his cellmate, who in turn comes to me! I wanted to crush him. I wanted to rip his head off and ____ down his neck!

He didn’t know it, of course, but God got involved, and saved him from serious injury. I’m not trying to sound tough, or like I can’t get my butt kicked, because I have, by smaller men and smarter men, but God is on my side. I kept my head and told him the truth, “stop”, and he did. He left the kid alone!

Then, they got drunk and got into the shower and tried to have youngsters in there with them and all hell broke loose. It lasted for a brief time. They moved a few people and that was it.

Then came them putting everyone else on the spot by changing cells at night, so that they could have sex. Well, the guards got wind of it and were going to lock the yard down, but decided to come down on them instead.

The drug problem is the same as usual. Yes, the stealing is going on and I tell people not to be near my cell. That way all of the dope-heads realize we’re aware of them and their actions.

I’ve said a lot about me being innocent, and I want to share with you that there were cameras in that business and they showed me not doing anything at all. But the cops didn’t collect the tapes, so they said….? They looked at the tapes and saw that I didn’t do anything, but because of their hate, and me being black, they didn’t turn over the tapes to me, the defense! Are they rotten or what? I went to trial and they didn’t even inform the jury that there weren’t any tapes. That so-called lawyer of mine was working with them. He didn’t tell me about the tapes, or ask about them, period. They seriously screwed me.

Strength + Honor
Steel Embrace
Each one – Teach one

PS) Hi to the T-Bone Appreciation Society

Shaun Attwood  

From T-Bone (Letter 63)

T-Bone is a massively-built spiritual ex-Marine, who uses fighting skills to stop prison rape. T-Bone’s latest letter from Arizona prison:
The other day, I was officiating a basketball game and this youngster didn’t like a call I made, and I was really disrespected on the extreme side by this young man. Believe me when I say this: there was a voice inside my head telling me to knock that kid out, to put him on a gurney and have them wheel him out of here! I had the choice at that moment and I let him make a fool out of himself by laughing at him and letting the CO III deal with him.

In other words, life is full of choices that can cause sorrow and pain or joy and peace. For example, this kid last year was horny and he wasn’t satisfied jacking off, so he went and had sexual relations with a man. Now he is infected with HIV because of the choice he made.

We all should look at how we set an example to young people out there. People were looking at me to see what I was going to do to the kid at the basketball game. I let go myself and let God control my thinking and actions! Almost every day we all are able to make a difference in someone else’s life and that call comes down to the choices we make! That kid couldn’t deal with me on any level, but the choice I made to not harm him kept me and him out of the role, and not harming oneself is always a good idea.

When I used drugs, I thought it was a positive decision because of the way I was taught by people who were misguided in my youth! This place is full of fear and hate, and I’ve been put in this place to help lives.

A youngster came to me two days ago extremely angry, telling me how the guards shook his cell down and took almost all of his things.
He asked them, “Why did you do it?”
They said, “Another inmate told us you took a box of hooch to your cell!”
He went ballistic, but we had been talking for months and God gave me all the words to speak to him to calm him down.

But the other guy who snitched him out didn’t think at all in regards to his life in here and it could have cost that and so much more! He made the wrong choice, like getting involved with people who want to drink and drive (illegally) and then another bad choice when he told the guards.

Please share that with TBOS and let them know that listening to The truth and living the truth and doing what is right is the real way to be successful. There will be many challenges in life. Don’t allowing yourself to be controlled by doubt, fear and hate, or to be led to make the wrong choices. 

Thing’s here are wild because of the drugs and alcohol, but, thanks to God, I have the ability to overcome all those things that have hindered my life. I am studying through Pima Community College, doing Heating, Ventilation and Air Conditioning (HVAC). I’ve completed the course, and now I always have my nose in the second book and keeping notes. It’s a lot of fun.

Be strong and of good courage and you will see that drugs, gangs, evil thinking in general, aren’t what will make you who you want to be: A Positive, Strong, Intelligent Person!

Stay at Peace. I’ll be out of here soon.

                           EACH ONE - TEACH ONE
                           STRENGTH & HONOR 
                           STEEL EMBRACE!

Shaun Attwood